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My father was a firefighter, who retired a few years ago. Subconsciously, I feel proud for my father as a firefighter, probably from the established impression: Fire Hero. However, I barely know about my father's firefighting job, except that a firefighter’s job is to fight against fire. Father is always serious, reticent, and easy to get angry. Usually at home he rarely spoke to the family, and never mentioned his work. I would like to get close to my father, and perhaps start to understand his work is a good start. So I started a journey of firefighters, to experience the life of a firefighter, and try to find the plight of the firefighting system. After a period of time shooting firefighter HSU,CHIH-MING, I found that the interaction among us was always linked to the relationship between me and my father; deep in my heart, I am most concerned about my dad. I’ve been living outside during my study in middle and high schools, university and institute, until recently I finished my military serve and moved back home. Getting along with my serious father every day is not easy, as he always blame us no matter what we say and do. Because he holds pretty radical ideas with a relatively eccentric personality and always hide his feelings. After spent some time filming a documentary in the fire brigade, I decided that I want to understand my father by shooting this documentary; whether good or bad, this was always a beginning. So, I began to get familiar with my father's past and his physical condition. Ultimately, I hope when the film is completed, it can be shown to my father to express my love to him. In fact, when we are face to face, we are not able to communicate our emotions, but through the movie, I not only can convey my recognition and my voice to him, but also express my hope that I want to be closer to father. As a son, I really hope to interact more with father, rather than alienate him. Shooting this documentary is a practical approach to understand my father. It is like an action research, shuttling my work in the field of his former job and his home life after retirement. As a son of a fireman, I hope to reconstruct the relationship between my father and I, through the action of recording images.
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